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Sometimes I have a few months where I fail at keeping certain things up to date. This journal, this semester for instance. My DA journal is updated more often than this- by far! Well this semester has been interesting. I think I've come a long way in many respects, and I really can't believe I'm going to be 25 on wednesday. I'm older than my mum when she had my brother, and almost as old as she was when she had me! blerch. On the "growing up" note, I've enjoyed having a place where I can just rant and rave about various things, but I'm not sure that, really, that does me any good. It's sort of like taking your aggression out on a pillow, it doesn't relieve it, it just makes it worse. And then there's a permanent reminder on the internet of what are, in retrospect, such silly moments. I'm not deleting this journal, but I am abandoning it. I'll be creating a new one- a new journal for a new era of my life (forgive that cheesyness) The username is "SovaeSovae". It will be half journal, half art crap... sort of like my DA journal and blog I guess. I haven't personalized it yet- truth is I have no idea how to! But I'm sure I'll mash something together. Those who wish to add me, please do. Those who don't, well, don't! hehe Oh, also for those who don't know, my websites are back up- oceanicartwork.com :) Current Location: Studio
Current Mood:  accomplished
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My sentiments *exactly* Credit to DJ McBastard "I am fed the fuck up with people wanting to "get credit" for every little animal product they give up. There are three categories. Omniwhores, Vegetarians, or Vegan. I don't care if you eat absolutely no animal products except for fish. You're an omniwhore. I don't care if you only eat cheese once a decade and protest against factory farmed milk. You're a vegetarian. You know what, all these sub sub sub sub sub categories have many negative impacts: --It fucks up what people think vegan is....and we vegans end up getting served sandwiches with mayo when we fly, go to conferences, etc. --It allows people to use labels they don't deserve. And fucking excuse me for saying deserve, but it's true. I fucking love beef. It taste wonderful. But you know what, it's not a cow's place to decide if I live or die, so it's not my fucking right to say a cow deserves to die because "my body speaks to me via my magical asshole and says 'you really need a hamburger'" I know some people on here LOVE cheese. And that's fine, because we have the fucking clits and balls to forgo one or two favorites so we may ethically and with self-respect led our non-human animal friends to total and ultimate liberation --It dilutes the potency of the Animal Rights message by saying you may make exceptions for convenience foods or sweets or whatever the fuck it is. --It gives our enemies firepower to call us hypocrites and further marginalize us, when the media already does a fine job of that. You know what, I love being vegan, and I don't know how I could be anything else at this point. But that being said, we all gave up a few things we loved, and yes, we gained all kinds of new food. If you cannot find joy giving up ALL ANIMAL MEATS or ALL ANIMAL PRODUCTS for your own fucking egocentric, greedy palate, you do not have a true understanding of animal rights or you are apathetic to their suffering. VEGAN, VEGETARIAN, OMNIWHORE, OR SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU FOODIE DIRTY FREE RANGE ORGANIC "IT HAD A HAPPY LIFE SO IT'S OK AND BEES DON'T SUFFER ASSHOLES." UUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGH AND TO CLOSE THIS OUT HONEY IS NOT FUCKING VEGAN. LEATHER IS NOT FUCKING VEGAN. FISH IS NOT FUCKING VEGETARIAN." <3 Tags: vegan
Current Location: Home
Current Mood:  optimistic
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Sorry for my overly emo last post. Tonight has been like going back 7 years in an emotional and mental time machine. I spent ages crying and spilling all my fears and worries onto Jeremy. I think I needed to do that. I tend to keep things locked up inside and then people wonder why I'm being the way I am, I just don't let people know when there's something wrong. I learned a lot saying it all too. Sometimes all you have is irrational half-formed thoughts and impulces in your mind, and it's only when you speak them that you discover the ones that are just emo, and the ones that lead to things that are true. This semester has been emotionally draining because in all semesters before it I was doing art or working on classes that were prereqs for art. This is the first one where I've been working on things that are only going to lead to more classes like themselves. The problem is that it took this semester to make me realize that the reason I have been a person so happy with my life and what I have and therefore emotionally stable is not because I was emotionally stable to start with, but because I was doing something I loved. Doing what I loved most in the world made me a happy person. My emotional and physical health started going downhill in the summer, but I never could have guessed how far down it was going to spiral, how shot my nerves were going to get. I haven't been myself for months now, I've been a complete bitch who has been in emotional turmoil and blamed it on those around her. The truth is that I need to be doing art to define myself. Wether or not that is a good thing remains to be seen, but the point is that I need it, because without it I don't know who I am, and when I don't know who I am I become a nervous and emotional wreck. I'm sorry for that, I really am. I'm sorry to all my friends and family, I'm sorry to everyone at the guild who has had to see me this way. Most of all I'm sorry to jeremy- who has patiently taken all my abuse and emotional ups and downs, and has never judged me once, never rolled his eyes and walked away, never gotten angry at me, helped me with anything I needed help with no matter how I was acting. He has this unearthly emotional detachment that I admire and am thankful for. So really, in Jeremy's words, all I need to do now is to shit or get off the pot. To shit would mean going on thike this and being fucked over. To get off means I fail the class, and more importantly fail myself. Current Mood:  okay
Current Music: Album Leaf
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Well, no much in the way of news. My antibiotics have cleared up my cat-claw infection! But it itches like crazy!! The antibiotics also took the liberty of murdering all the bacteria in my digestive system so it's been... well.. Anyway! I have two new paintings done in painter using a new technique of chalk, oil, pastel, water variants, and pencils. The first was done last week, and I completed the today.  "Nowhere" is a dragon character of Della's, from the guild ^-^.  And this I finished for the first time early this morning. But after a lot of retarded comments on DA telling me that the anatomy was wrong because they assumed I was basing it off of a horse (I even had someone nice enough to link a photo of a horse, so I could see what they actually looked like.............) It's actually based off a bull. I looked at a lot of the old statues of Kirin, and they looked more bull-like than anything. Stubby legs, thick bodies. I made the body on mine a little more lithe, but I like the bull-like shoulders and everything. The head is more goat-like ^^ Current Location: school
Current Mood: accomplished
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I'm going to take him somewhere else to photograph, as I'm not really happy with the way he looks in the main picture. I'd love to do it by the ocean, but alas, there are no seas in tennessee :<  http://www.deviantart.com/view/34683280/ http://www.deviantart.com/view/34683469/Cernit Raw Silk Wool epoxy Putty Oils Acrylic Raw Pigments Regular Make-up TCS glass (for mirror) glass eyes He's 6" tall, and 10" wide, took about 4 days. Current Location: school
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Anathema
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This is my new sculpture, took about three good days to complete. I'm pretty proud of him. His tail is fully posable, his ears are flexible, he has mohair sor main, tail, fetlocks, beard, and ear fluff, and glass eyes. He's painted in some good new acrylics I god, called Interactive. They stay wet a lot longer so they're easier to work with :}   With his tail straight, he's a bit over a foot long. Current Mood:  melancholy
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